The Awakening Of The Heart

You might have noticed that awareness is an integral component of who and what we truly are. Where we are, it is, and where it is, we are. The time usually arrives when the task at hand becomes to deepen our level of engagement with what is true. The reason is that if you’re undergoing an experience of awakening on the level of awareness and mind, you are only seeing part of the experiential component to awakening as a whole.

There’s something else asking to be attended to in waking up that is really indescribable, but in order to distinguish the process from concerns directly pertaining to awareness and the morass of mental constructs, I will refer to it as the heart. It isn’t really the physical heart, and it is not separate from any other aspect of awakening, but we are limited by language in this enterprise.

A person can undergo an enormous existential shift as a result of awakening at the level of what we call the mind, the ego or the reflexive self. It can have multiple effects that may take years to settle. During this time, you may not even begin to realise there was anything behind awareness in the subtle emotional body.

This is the heart, waiting patiently in line to wake up.

It contains and encompasses the entire energetic history of our choices, values, and relationships. This encounter can be confusing to those who have awakened from mind, especially since the ‘awareness’ aspect of you often has to spend so long coming to an even keel after seeing through all of its various beliefs and illusions.

Awakening from mind can be disillusioning, disarming, and liberating. Sooner or later, however, it does become plainly obvious that waking up only at the level of mind is not a full expression of who we truly are all the way in. I don’t mean to sound mysterious about it, but this is just something that arises in you, in some form or another.

This whole process is really all very straightforward and natural. It is just that we have invested so much of our life energy in surrounding ourselves with that which is not natural that it becomes confusing even trying to look toward the sun to find the light of day.

The ‘modern’ problem, seemingly going back at least as far as anyone can recall, is that nothing is clear anymore. Somewhere along the way, we humans have collectively lost our clarity of vision (that is, if we have ever had it). We don’t know who we are, we do not know the nature of our own deepest being. If that were true, conflict at any level would no longer be possible.

More than ever before, the focus of society is in feeding distraction, exacerbating differences and normalizing the role of conflict at every level.

Identification with anyone or anything is being aggressively encouraged globally. The consensus version of knowing who you are approximates to ‘I am resolutely fixed at these points of identification’, which is actually about as far removed from understanding our true nature as is humanly possible. This is the new benchmark of insanity, and its continuation is only possible if we delay remembering our true nature, at which point the conditioned insanity of identification is retired.

True to form, the Earth is faithfully showing us outwardly what our children are set to inherit, which is a polluted world, both in the sense of our environment and our encultured values. The modern world is a realm of rapid influx of refuse, mental and physical, and we have all contributed as consumers. To at least clear this debris from our inner world, we need to begin by acknowledging that which is true, beginning with an understanding of ourselves.

In the case of mind, this is a new world altogether to become accustomed to when you realise that you inhabit a living reality and not simply a screen of thoughts, beliefs and other projections.

The illusions of the heart are much more subtle energetic confusions than those of the mind, and ask of us an even deeper commitment to inquiry and examination than those of the mind. You can be brightly awake and grounded at the level of mind, and at the level of the emotional body, you can still very much experience the ongoing throes of confusion and separation.

For example, you may be well aware that who you are is not limited by your beliefs or thoughts, yet still experience wounding from spurious comments about you, or you still may experience emotional dysfunction with your close relationships, even if your feelings go unspoken.

Often, the initial entry into awakening leads us to be even less likely to address our own feelings. This doesn’t all settle automatically; it is for most of us a very gradual process of sifting through old energetic cycles and gently reminding ourselves to disengage. You can delay heart-centred awakening forever, and most people do.

I think there are a couple of reasons for this.

When you have experienced a lot of suffering, it can be relatively expansive and liberating to suddenly realise your freedom from mind, therefore it can be quite a welcome fit. In this regard, awakening can allow is to go for a very long time insulated by an imaginary wall from the neck up.

With the awakening of the heart, however, truth is asking us to return headlong into the heart of the emotional disturbance when this is what awakening from thought promised to relieve. When we awaken from the dream of separation at the level of mind, we are very tempted into living life in a withdrawn and detached kind of way.

Ironically, in some ways, awakening from mind can shift us even more into our head than we were before, just without all of our usual thought identifications. This is an easy way to get stuck, at least in the beginning. Once you have had a taste of freedom from separation, it looks at first as though you are separate from separation – a strange illusion, to be sure.

People caught in this phase will often come across as emotionally detached, dispassionate, and even quite routinely dismissive of others thoughts and feelings because the default attitude becomes ‘everything is just an illusion’. The opening stages of awakening make it look like this is it, the end of the line.

After some time, this new version of things begins to stagnate. This is because the realization is fundamentally incomplete. You don’t just have an awareness asking to be awakened, you really have an entire soul or psyche waiting to be attended to, including mental and emotional realms, and multidimensional energetic systems that aren’t referenced anywhere in modern maps of western psychological literature.

The soul is so complex that it is literally unknowable through external conditions. It can be experienced, but it cannot be contained or subjugated.

We have a collective tendency to occupy so little attention within the space of our own energetic environment. This is why emotional attachments and fixations return again and again, even in what appears to be ‘awakened individuals’. There is an entire inner galaxy of energy waiting to be met by this awakened awareness, and none of it is resolved until we allow that remembrance of our ground of being to settle down into our heart space, the most aggressively knotted and well-armoured of all energetic spaces.

You wouldn’t believe what is down there.

When you really get to know yourself in the quiet reflection of solitude, it can be as astonishing as watching the birth of a universe being renewed in each moment. The filters of our thoughts and expectations make these kinds of revelatory experiences uncommon except in often extreme cases. You really don’t need to die to become more intimately acquainted with the truth of who you are. It can happen in this life, in this moment. Look deeply for yourself and see that which was never born and that which never dies.

Remember, I’m not presuming to announce the truth here- this is all merely a manner of speaking intended to evoke a response in the form of a direct inner reflection on your part. This is all pointing at something important within all of us, and available at this moment.

The expectation here should be to start out very small.

Even broaching the question of whether you ever feel things that are difficult to name or pin down conceptually is a significant beginning. Your dedicated peeks into the unknown, like someone learning the skill of navigating in the dark, will eventually result in glimpses that become irreversible and life-altering. You will not be able to verbally share the depth of your experience with others, nor will you ever feel you need to.

Simon P Murphy is a Nelson-based esotericist and philosopher, and author of His Master’s Wretched Organ, a brilliant collection of weird fiction stories.

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Biology Denial

One of the most influential social phenomena in the modern world is also one of the least understood. It is the widespread denial of the laws of biology and of the biological reality in which the human species has evolved. Although this might seem, to some, to be an academic point, denial of biological reality can have an immense impact on a person’s values and political opinions.

The reality is that human society and behaviour is primarily a biological phenomenon.

Psychologists today know that all the warring and aggression shown by humans in today’s society is little more than adaptations to a biological past where violence was commonplace. In a state of Nature, resources are scarce. Because of this scarcity, it can happen that multiple creatures desire them. When that happens, conflict is the inevitable result.

The same is true of co-operation and love. It’s been well established, ever since the publication of Edward O. Wilson’s The Social Conquest of Earth, that it’s impossible to make sense out of human history without understanding that the human species evolved sociality for the sake of overcoming survival challenges.

Human society, then, is most easily understood as a web of mutual aid that increases the survival and reproductive opportunities of all of its members. The more cohesive groups drive out the less cohesive ones. The Rambo-style individualist doesn’t survive a state of Nature, because one serious injury will kill him. The tribe that works together, on the other hand, can easily recover from non-fatal injuries to individuals.

However, this neat and elegant explanation for much of the complexity of the world does not appeal to some. There are some out there who deny that human behaviour is analogous to primate behaviour, or that human behaviour has evolved to meet survival and reproductive challenges in the natural world, or that significant biodiversity exists within the human species, or that ethology and evolutionary psychology are valid approaches that can make accurate predictions.

This insanity is known as biology denial.

As it turns out, there are several reasons why a person would deny biological science.

One of the most common reasons is narcissism. This is particularly true when it comes to evolution by natural selection. Many people don’t like to think that they evolved from a common ancestor with today’s monkeys. They prefer to think of other animals as a different category to themselves, something categorically lower.

This is related to another major reason to deny biology – religious reasons. The fundamentalist religious nutter believes that Yahweh created the entire Universe, perhaps as recently as 6,000 years ago, and therefore there’s no such thing as evolution. As anyone who knows anything about biology can tell you, if you deny evolution you deny all of biology. This is the reason for the “never say dinosaur” strain of Christcuckery.

The main reason why people deny biology is for political reasons.

This is most obvious when it comes to the subject of race and IQ. Every primary school student learns that there are no two things within Nature that are exactly the same – no two snowflakes, no two cats, no two mountains, no two races. Because biological life evolves to fill different ecological niches, the characteristics of life within those niches is always different.

On the subject of race and IQ, however, the truth is just about the most politically incorrect subject that it’s possible to speak of. As per Ibram X. Kendi, one of the world’s foremost biology deniers, “the races are meaningfully the same in their biology and there are no genetic racial differences”. Anyone who disagrees is cancelled.

In reality, Blank Slate Theory (what Kendi is pushing) is a form of biology denial, because it denies the heritability of natural characteristics. This goes against the available evidence, which is why Steven Pinker was able to meticulously and comprehensively demolish it in his book The Blank Slate. That biology denial can reach pathological proportions is evident from the magnitude of the evidence in favour of heritability.

Because biology denial is political, it varies in intensity depending on the aspect of biology under discussion.

Some people deny it totally. One notorious case involves a university student who believed that the reason why men are stronger than women is because they are encouraged to play more sports as children. Most children figure out when very young that there are significant physical differences between men and women. That an adult might deny this is incredible.

The modern transexual fad is another example of biology denial. Some heterosexual men are getting called bigots for preferring biological women over biological men pretending to be women, as if there was truly no difference between the two.

That men are naturally more violent than women, on the other hand, is accepted without question. That this heightened propensity towards violence necessitates exclusion of males from female spaces is, likewise, accepted without question. Any degree of biology can be denied, but whether it is depends on who would benefit from the denial.

All are equal, but some are more equal than others.

The ultimate end effect of biology denial is delusion and suffering. As Philip K Dick wrote: “Reality is that which, when you stop believing in it, doesn’t go away.” Westerners are now discovering that human biodiversity is a real thing, and that immigrants from low-IQ nations can’t simply be educated to behave exactly the same way as everyone else.

Biology deniers are so twisted up in their irrational thinking that they believe Asian immigrants to America to have white privilege. Asian students in America frequently find themselves having to get better grades than non-Asians to access the same privileges. Sometimes they need to get even better grades than white students.

Biology denial can only lead to inaccurate perceptions of reality, and thereby to a failure to accurately predict human behaviour, and thereby to political policy that harms instead of helps. Had it been widely understood that intelligence was genetic and that some human populations are an entire standard deviation or more less intelligent than whites, the mass immigration of cheap labour from the Third World to the West might never have happened.

At time of writing, biology denial is one of the greatest threats to our ability to wisely navigate the ship of civilisation through the challenges facing us.

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The Vital Experiment

When all things have run their course, when every avenue has been exhausted, somehow you will end up back here. Not with me, but here with you, where it all began. Welcome back!

It may have been a long time, or it may not. It doesn’t really make much of a difference, because this is where time has no dominion.

I have to take some space here to elaborate on my part in all this, because it shouldn’t be overstated. My role in this is very limited. I am not an academic, priest, holy man or a teacher, I wouldn’t presume to teach you anything that you do not already know at a deep level. If anything, my role here is that of a facilitator. I’m just doing what I am inclined by my nature to do. I reach out to you, but strictly speaking I don’t help you, because any help you receive is that which you have chosen to do for yourself.

This is to serve as a reminder appearing within the dream inviting you to return home and disengage from that which causes you unnecessary suffering. This disengagement on your part will naturally allow a bringing forth of that which is authentic within you. I try to make this process simple and direct, because in this endeavour we are not looking to add more layers of complexity, nor are we primarily seeking to alleviate the symptoms of dysfunction. Instead, we are going to the absolute core of all error, which could be provisionally worded as your felt sense of being a separate someone.

Another way of putting this is, you think what is happening is finally, ultimately real, and as a result, stemming from a confusion about who you truly are. In other words, you don’t know who you are, even though you may have many revolving thoughts and intimate beliefs about who you are, or who you think you should be. The litmus test is, if there is any confusion about who you are, any suffering, any enduring question, then know that this denotes the influence of separation.

Again, I can’t claim responsibility for any of the work, I am just on standby with a supportive hand on the shoulder. Your input alone is decisive wherever you happen to turn up, and in whatever form this moment happens to take. You do all of the important work, and this really is the only way you will ever benefit from it.

I do not have endorsement by the authority of any person, tradition, or institution to do this. I would argue that this is for the best, because it is important that propositions be weighed according to their own merit, not upon any assumed authority of the speaker.

If there was one thing that I would pass on as any benefit to the human condition at this time, it would be the one vital experiment that would call all else into question. This is the invitation for you yourself to undertake the vital experiment, to stand at the very beginning of what is true and has always been true, not separate from who you are for a single moment. If silence is going to be broken, it may as well be for that. It is something you need to see directly for yourself in order to understand the nature of who and what you are.

A belief, however sophisticated or fervent, is never going to be enough to produce freedom. If there is any confusion, any question as to who and what you are, then you haven’t come to the discovery yet. Any way you think things ought to be, any conditions or expectations you place upon the outer world derive from archaic dissociation with your true identity.

There is a small part of you that wants to make sure its notion of ‘waking up’ will fit the profiles of its wants and needs. What will I get out of it? What will it look like? Ego is a foolish project in this regard, because every person has that which awakening fosters already. We are already familiar with it from our earliest inception. We should perhaps instead look at what has never changed, that which has never been different.

All difference arises from that which is never different – strange paradox, but if we observe this for ourselves, the truth in it is revealed. The fruit of awakening isn’t on the other side of some process or behavioural program. We don’t go over there to get it. That is the other business – delusion, separation.

That is what we move for, that is what we leave home to try to grasp onto.

There is a deep yearning for truth, for home. This is a real desire, perhaps even deeper than what we consider within the usual spectrum of human desires. You could call it a soul desire. It is a mystery at this level as to why it comes forward strongly in some individuals and less in others. It is not a ‘bad’ desire in the sense that it does not invest in more cycles of suffering. It makes itself known, either fiercely or quietly, and it isn’t really addressed until you start to acknowledge the woods for the trees, which can be quite a drawn-out process of stepping back, again and again.

This enterprise is all about stepping back. If you are honest and inquisitive about your wants, needs and desires, you will start to find the same kinds of energies as other people involved in this process tend to. Don’t believe this, look for yourself and see whether it is true in your experience.

Most people will not read through something like this unless there is a pre-existing familiarity. There is a part of you, actually much smaller than you might think, that is terribly afraid, fearful, and only asks for things to get better, for the suffering to be relieved. There is another part that gravitates so strongly toward the value of truth and wisdom for its own sake that it wants nothing else. It won’t settle for any less. It doesn’t care in the least about the egoic energy and its small wants.

This may even strike us as quite an anomaly, given that the human lives we occupy are otherwise so richly bound with that which falls within the providence of the biological, such as succeeding, staying safe, finding a mate and so forth. That small part of you under strict cultural and genetic instructions to get more and do better than others is exceptionally narrow, and really doesn’t have any power when it comes to truth. In a sense, when you bring this conditioning into awareness, you are beginning to put down the playthings not only of the small self, but really those of the entire species.

There is the part of you that knows its way back to truth, like a homing pigeon. It is interested in an entirely different game to the small self. Your simply being in this world evokes an open-ended story. There is a tiny but disproportionately represented energy within you that wants to get rid of just enough dysfunction to avoid waking, and keep separation. It is like a mote of dust trying to block out the sun. If you keep it close enough to your eye, it can – that doesn’t mean it is as big as you think it is.

Now, be warned: you cannot get rid of what you do not want, and reserve the right to pick and choose from other illusions. It is an all or nothing deal. How do you set one part of a building ablaze? The other component, utterly vast in comparison but skilfully clouded by the insistent needs of the other energy movement, seeks waking up – truth – unreservedly, because it knows this is home, this is unity. It is the part of us that is finally, truly real, but it doesn’t play games. It is like the fire of the Sun. When it comes through into your life, it will bring with it a conflagration of things that the personal identity has no control to pick and choose.

So what is required of you if you seek resolution to this open question of your being?

I have extremely good news.

You do not need to undertake effort, except insofar as discipline is effort. You need awareness, you need to commit to observing clearly. There are no two ways about it – a platform of awareness is required, and this consists in devoted self-observation.

The next part of the good news is that discipline will usually come to you in a measure proportionate to the dissatisfaction you have experienced by way of falsehood hitherto. This is fed by an egoic pipeline of frustration with the cycles of feeling at the behest of painful dysfunction and thwarted ego projects. In other words, if the illusion continues to entice you back into its fold, out of the wholeness of awareness and back into the fear-driven sleep-state of separation, then it is only because there is enough of an investment there to call you back to it.

It is often said that the proof of a desire lies in the habit of response. You must ultimately decide what is most important in your life, waking up or going back to sleep within the illusion, and if you are like most of us, you will most likely have to re-commit to this repeatedly.

You might be surprised at how much truth seeking and spirituality is just another level of distraction within the illusion. Reality runs astonishingly deep, and beyond a certain point there are no longer words or images that will serve us. Eventually, you may come to prefer inner silence above all else. The rule is, if self-recognition isn’t realised at the deepest level of being, then it isn’t relevant to the experience of unity. A belief in unity will not serve you any more than any other belief. If transformation is what you want, then you must come to it experientially, or not at all.

The third part of the good news is this is an eternally open invitation – it is always available for consideration in this moment, and it is unconditionally extended to everyone.

Simon P Murphy is a Nelson-based esotericist and philosopher, and author of His Master’s Wretched Organ, a brilliant collection of weird fiction stories.

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Explaining The Abrahamic Obsession With Anti-Racism And Anti-Nationalism

No-one virtue signals harder than Abrahamists bragging about how anti-racist they are. Some have argued that this reflects a deep-seated guilt complex – the Abrahamist’s attempt to atone before a wrathful deity. This essay will argue that the Abrahamist rejects race and nation for the same reason they reject family: because Abrahamism is an inherently unnatural mentality that perverts all thought and all morality.

For all their disagreements, the followers of the various Abrahamic cults can agree on one thing: cult comes before kin.

For the Christian, this is simply following Jesus’s threat from Matthew 10:37: “Anyone who loves his father or mother more than Me is not worthy of Me; anyone who loves his son or daughter more than Me is not worthy of Me.” Here Jesus, like any other cult leader, rejects those who will not reject their own family in favour of him.

This sentiment is harmonious with the sentiment that, for Christians, there is neither Jew nor Greek, for all are one in Rabbi Yeshua. The Christian abandons his ties to the natural world in order to earn the grace of his universalist god. Yahweh and his prophet Rabbi Yeshua are not pleased by those who maintain the natural consciousness of family, nation or race. All are to be subjugated to cult consciousness.

Muhammad, for his part, is recorded as having preached that “All mankind is from Adam and Eve, an Arab has no superiority over a non-Arab, nor a non-Arab has any superiority over an Arab; also a white has no superiority over black, nor a black has any superiority over white except by piety and good action.” Here, “piety and good action” means, of course, submission to Islam.

This has led some to state that “The religion of Islam forbids racism and racial inequality.” Certainly, the Muslims of the Barbary slave trade were not white supremacists. Like the Christians, Muslims are happy to admit that they consider people who share their cult, but not their race, to be of greater importance than those who share their race but not their cult.

This is why both Christians and Muslim immigrants to the West are constantly screaming about racism. In destroying the national consciousness of their host nations, they achieve the Abrahamic objective of destroying all competing power structures. It’s also why Christians credit all of the achievements of whites to Christianity, but blame all of the crimes of Christianity on whites.

It’s more complicated for Jews. Being both religion and race, Jews lack the self-destructive, self-righteous masochism of Christians and Muslims. But, like their Abrahamic brethren, they still do everything they can to destroy family consciousness, national consciousness and race consciousness. This is why organisations that lobby to increase refugee quotas are often full of Jews.

Marxists, who are realistically just a secular form of Abrahamist, are little different. They seek to destroy familial, national and race consciousness for the same reason as the other Abrahamists – because those are competing loyalties. The Marxist puts his ideology above his kin, just as the religious Abrahamist puts his cult above his kin. Also like the other Abrahamisms, Marxist ideology is universal, which manifests as globalism in secular space.

For the Abrahamist, religious or secular, creed comes before kin, always. In fact, it goes much further. The more you can reject your own kin, the more righteous and holy you are. The highest moral achievement of the Abrahamist is to completely sever ties with one’s blood family and race. Yahweh is a jealous god, and all other loyalties must be abandoned. It must be all Yahweh, all the time.

Highest of all in the Abrahamic moral hierarchy is the one who can impassively watch on as their nation or race is destroyed, or who can even assist in that destruction. To resist the destruction of one’s own kin, in the Abrahamic mindset, is to cling to the material world, and is therefore a spiritual failure. The person who identifies with their blood family and race is the equivalent of the devil worshipper.

Someone indifferent to the destruction of their family, nation or race, on the other hand, can be said to have transcended petty material concerns and become something truly holy. If you can sit back indifferent while your family, nation or race is destoyed and replaced, you have truly achieved divine status.

Like everything else Adharmic, this mentality is an unbalanced phenomenon that goes against natural law, and therefore will not exist forever. The balanced Dharmic view suggests that one’s yin energies might come from one’s physical incarnation, and that one’s yang energies might come from one’s spiritual incarnation, and therefore that the two must be kept in balance.

The mentally ill person says No to life, sacrificing the physical as if it was something evil. They do not play their role as a being trying to overcome challenges for the sake of entertaining the gods. Rather, they withdraw, and neglect their physical, recreational, social and even their survival needs.

The mentally healthy person says Yes to life, and exults in the niche that they inherited from their forebears. They set aspirations, and then strive to achieve them, overcoming the challenges that they encounter. They understand that the material world is not something to cower away from, but is rather the stage on which the play of life takes place.

This doesn’t mean that saying Yes to life requires indulging in all of the cruelties of the natural world.

It means finding the correct balance between spiritual and material concerns. The Elementalist suggestion is to live one’s life to the fullest, but in the knowledge that the material world is not the fundamental basis of reality. The material world is one Great Fractal dreamed up by God for the purpose of entertainment, and the most important thing is to correctly play one’s role within it, whatever that might be.

The Abrahamist fails to understand this need for balance, choosing instead to virtue signal their moral superiority to the material world, which they reject in favour of a promised land in the afterlife. This is a fundamentally unhealthy and unnatural attitude that only leads to great suffering.

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