VJMP Trip Report: Dimethyltryptamine

The first attempt, using a complicated setup involving a metal crucible, a glass chamber with a seal and a powerful blowtorch, failed in a flash, bang and puff of smoke. There was enough for a second hit, which I tried using the “Terence McKenna Method” of a bong half-filled with cannabis, then a layer of DMT, then some more cannabis. It was hard to light but, thanks to the assistance of a nearby shaman, I managed to blast it back and hold it in.

My first impression was that it felt a lot like salvia, except pleasant. It brought with it a salvia-like experience of the edges of perception vibrating harder and harder until normal perception broke down. As with salvia, I had the sense of seeing entire universes within the smallest fragment of the material world. One such fragment was the ceiling boards above the couch where I lay.

The background music playing, a pleasant downbeat ambient, collapsed into a single tone, a high-pitched frequency that I realised was the same as the Hindu Om, i.e. the frequency of the Universe. I heard this tone in the centre of my head as I felt the particles of my body vibrate and melt into the couch. Also like the salvia, the DMT seemed to enable my soul to look past the restrictions of the body, i.e. vision was no longer restricted to the senses of the eyes.

The only major difference to the salvia was that the DMT felt really good.

These ceiling boards I stared at seemed to dissipate, as if the particles maintaining the illusion of them had become too high-energy, and they left behind a gloriously multicoloured fractal that vibrated intensely. The longer I looked into this fractal, the more it started to take three-dimensional form, with a number of corridors stretching away from me and away from the immediate surface.

On the walls closest to me, i.e. those not stretching away to form the corridors, faces appeared. At first these were Olmec-style colossal heads. The central one, and the undulations of its colours, transfixed me. Soon it formed into the face of a tuatara, which watched me out of both eyes. I realised that I was being observed by God, who was behind the face of the tuatara, as I was myself God observing the tuatara from behind my own face.

Ensorcelled by these strange hallucinations, the visions before me seemed more true than the material world that I had just come out of. I realised that this was how it felt to die, for one’s consciousness to shed the coat of skin that it’s adorned with in this life – and that to die was the most natural thing in the world.

In the same way that, after you breathe in, the most natural thing is to breathe out, so after you live, the most natural thing is to die. It’s nothing to fear in the slightest.

Life in this space is an experience that our individual fragments of consciousness chose to have. In choosing to do so, they stepped down out of the true reality and into this space, which we call “The World”, but which is more like a single room off a narrow street that itself connects to a larger street which itself connects to a larger street and so on. The great trunk line of reality is somewhere else.

We choose to incarnate into this realm, and after this life we incarnate out of it again. Life is much like a protracted bungee jump: the beginning is terrifying, with a rush of barely comprehensible sensations, then you get used to the fear to some degree, and soon enough you’re back on the platform watching others do it. It’s all very entertaining, and accords with the understanding of Elementalism that the meaning of life is to entertain the gods.

I had a vision of having been buried inside a coffin and reaching out above my head, rising through my own crown chakra and through the ground, into the light above. In that space in the light above was the real world, and there were all the consciousnesses that had ever shared time or space with me here in the material world. They are only ever separated from the rest of us by the flimsiest of veils, one that can be broken through in a moment.

I was not in this space for long – either the dose was not the absolute strongest or some medication prevented the DMT from reaching its full effect. But it was long enough for me to remember the reason why I incarnated into this planet to have this particular life. To do so would afford the opportunity to rebalance the frequency of my consciousness, which had become imbalanced owing to decisions (and patterns of decisions) taken in previous lives.

In this life on Earth, I was born into poverty because I had not sufficiently appreciated wealth in previous lives, and that had left an impact on the frequency of my consciousness. I was born into violence, and was forced to encounter violence, because I had been violent in previous lives, and that had also left an impact on the frequency of my consciousness. I was born into spiritual ignorance for similar reasons.

Incarnating into an environment that is impoverished in these ways trains the frequency of one’s consciousness to appreciate them more. To that end, I said Yes to everything that I would experience during this life, and therefore have no cause for any resentment.

No matter how grim life on Earth may get, the experience serves to rebalance the frequency of one’s consciousness so that one may attain higher dimensions after the death of one’s physical body. As such, there’s no reason to say No to any of it. Even in dying and death, the experience can be embraced. If this is done, one’s consciousness will return to the real world above in a well-balanced state.

These realisations brought with them a powerful sense of the fundamental allrightness of the Universe. I understood that there was a way of perceiving reality so that none of the miseries in this world caused real suffering, and therefore that Plato was correct, when he wrote at the end of Timaeus, that this really is the best of all possible worlds.

There’s no reason to feel any real resentment, not even at the genuine shitness of some of the aspects of life in this world, because enduring them trains the frequency of one’s consciousness to appreciate their absence. The hunger, violence, lies, depression, misery and pain in this world train us to appreciate worlds in which they don’t exist (or are less pressing).

This was a great revelation for me, as I have always struggled with not really wanting to be in this place. These sentiments were especially strong after my grandparents died in 2016. DMT helped me realise that they (like everyone else that has ever incarnated into this world) wait for me in the real world above, and that the best thing is that our inevitable reunion follows a glorious life here, and not an inglorious one. We truly are heroes living under the eyes of the gods.

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The Fundamental Masculine Attitude

1. The Fundamental Masculine Attitude is the will to impose order upon chaos.

2. Masculinity is depicted as red, which represents the rage arising from the suffering caused by excess chaos.

3. The will to impose order upon chaos is ultimately inspired by the rejection of suffering. The masculine assumes authority of the local environment and imposes an order that keeps the suffering out.

4. The Fundamental Masculine Attitude is expressed in the material world through both the masculine and the feminine elements.

5. Masculinity in the aspect of clay involves determination to survive. This aspect of masculinity imposes order upon death, and thereby upon life.

6. Masculinity in the aspect of iron involves physical rectitude. This aspect of masculinity imposes order upon the body.

7. Masculinity in the aspect of silver involves intellectual rectitude. This aspect of masculinity imposes order upon the mind.

8. Masculinity in the aspect of gold involves spiritual rectitude. This aspect of masculinity imposes order upon the spirit.

9. Masculinity in the aspect of earth involves the fortification of order. This involves making order even more orderly, so that chaos is doubly suppressed.

10. Masculinity in the aspect of water involves the vitalisation of order. This involves strengthening order where it exists but is weakening.

11. Masculinity in the aspect of air involves the refinement of order. This involves smoothing out the cruder aspects of the existing order so that it’s less objectionable.

12. Masculinity in the aspect of fire involves the inspiration of order. This involves the inspiration of the will to impose order upon chaos.

13. For the masculine, even sexual reproduction involves the imposition of order upon chaos, because the sperm cell carries little apart from information.

14. Successful application of the Fundamental Masculine Attitude leads to rectitude.

15. A failure to apply the Fundamental Masculine Attitude leads to the feminine leading the masculine, which leads to chaos and suffering.

16. It can therefore be said that the essence of masculinity is rectitude, which is the same as the will to impose order upon chaos.

17. A respectable man is one who has rectitude. Through this quality, all other good qualities of masculinity are possible.

18. The Fundamental Masculine Atittude is also known as the Overcoming Will, because it’s the energy that leads a person or a group up the right-hand side of the Quadrijitu.

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The Masculine Elements

1. The masculine elements are waypoints along the Great Masculine Axis.

2. These elements reflect different frequencies.

3. There are an infinite number of ways of dividing the Great Masculine Axis into elements. Some of these configurations make more sense than others. The most popular are the twofold, fourfold and sevenfold divisions.

4. The sevenfold division of the Great Masculine Axis is represented by the Mithraic Ladder, which depicts how lead ascends to tin, how tin ascends to iron, how iron ascends to copper, how copper ascends to silver, how silver ascends to mercury and how mercury ascends to gold.

5. The first element, at the lowermost point of the Great Masculine Axis, is lead, immortalised as Cronus. The frequency of this element is saturnine.

6. Alchemical lead is soft, dull and grey. It represents the lowest possible frequency and the reality that life is fundamentally a battle for survival against the natural world.

7. The second element, immediately above lead on the Great Masculine Axis, is tin, immortalised as Zeus. The frequency of this element is jovial.

8. Lead ascends to tin by becoming brighter. This reflects that winning the battle for survival against the natural world is inherently pleasurable.

9. Alchemical tin is soft, bright and grey. It represents a very low frequency and the will to simple pleasure and entertainment.

10. The third element, immediately above tin on the Great Masculine Axis, is iron, immortalised as Ares. The frequency of this element is martial.

11. Tin ascends to iron by becoming harder. This reflects that anyone who overcomes the natural world must then clash with those others who overcame the natural world.

12. Alchemical iron is hard, dull and blue. It represents a low frequency and the will to dominate physically.

13. The fourth element, immediately above iron on the Great Masculine Axis, is copper, immortalised as Aphrodite. The frequency of this element is capricious.

14. Iron ascends to copper by becoming colourful. This reflects that the purpose of physical domination is to attract women.

15. Alchemical copper is hard, bright and red. It represents a moderate frequency and the will to romance and to make love.

16. The fifth element, immediately above copper on the Great Masculine Axis, is silver, immortalised as Artemis. The frequency of this element is brilliant.

17. Copper ascends to silver by becoming brighter. This reflects that knowledge brings order to the material world.

18. Alchemical silver is hard, bright and white. It represents a high frequency and the will to dominate intellectually.

19. The sixth element, immediately above silver on the Great Masculine Axis, is mercury, immortalised as Hermes and Athena. The frequency of this element is mercurial.

20. Silver ascends to mercury by quickening. This represents how true intelligence readily perceives the divine behind all things, and, by doing so, apotheosises.

21. Alchemical mercury is liquid, bright and grey. It represents a very high frequency and the will to exult oneself.

22. The seventh element, at the uppermost point of the Great Masculine Axis and immediately above mercury, is gold, immortalised as Apollo. The frequency of this element is radiant.

23. Mercury ascends to gold by becoming radiant. This represents how knowledge of the divine, and the will to know the divine, are the greatest of all goods.

24. Alchemical gold is soft, bright and yellow. It represents the highest frequency of all and the will of the divine.

25. Apotheosis is a matter of transforming the lead of one’s station of birth into the gold of unity with the will of the divine. This requires passing through all of the masculine elements, in turn.

26. The will to apotheosise is the most popular of all the Minor Aspirations.

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The 12 Conditions Of Alchemical Psychopathology

The following is an attempt to reconcile ancient Western esoteric psychology with ancient Eastern esoteric psychology. The idea is that all human psychopathological conditions fall into one of twelve categories, the categories being all permutations of genetic, environmental and spiritual (in the first place) and clay, iron, silver and gold (in the second place).

The first condition is genetic clay. This refers to a person who is weak for genetic reasons.

In this category are all sufferers of genetic conditions which make them weaker or more passive than normal. The typical outcome of falling into this category is that a person becomes resentful and bitter. Hatred for the world and for life in general is characteristic of people in the first condition.

This is also the category for people who are simply dumb. Most people not naturally intelligent enough to find a place in the world become resentful. In practice, there’s good reason to categorise such people with the other genetic unfortunates. In principle, it doesn’t matter much if a person is genetically weak for physical or mental reasons, because the attitude will be similar.

The second condition is genetic iron. This refers to a person who is cruel for genetic reasons.

The usual reason for a person to fall into this category is that they are physically stronger than average, but mentally weaker than average. This combination can lead to contempt for those physically weaker than them. This is the category that schoolyard bullies usually fall into, and it’s the one that adults fall into if they don’t grow out of the schoolyard bully stage.

People in this category might be ‘bad’, but they’re not ‘fucked-up’ or ‘evil’ like people from the sixth and tenth categories. It’s more a matter of being unusually boisterous or vigourous. Many juvenile delinquents fall into this category owing to understimulation, and most of those grow out of it (or have it knocked out of them).

The third condition is genetic silver. This refers to someone who has no genetic conditions, but who is otherwise not special.

The condition here is indifference towards those who are genetically less fortunate. Many people who are born without genetic conditions are incapable of understanding the suffering caused by them, and as such they feel contempt instead of sympathy towards those who have them.

Characteristic of the third condition, then, is a callous kind of apathy for ordinary people. It’s not really malicious, although it can be. It is different to the cruelty of the second condition in the sense that people in the third condition tend to direct others to cause harm, rather than causing harm themselves.

The fourth condition is genetic gold. This refers to someone who is perfectly in balance.

Those of genetic gold possess neither the weakness of people in the first condition, nor the brutality of people in the second condition, nor the cold apathy of people in the third condition. Belonging to this fourth condition are all the people who naturally feel empathy with other living beings.

Insofar as belonging to this group is a condition, it is the condition of suffering the envy of the less gifted, and the despair of not being appreciated in proportion to one’s true worth. Those of genetic gold will always have to adapt themselves to a world created to suit someone else. Someone in the fourth condition, then, is someone who literally has it too good for their own good.

Those are the four genetic conditions. In short, they are: suffering weakness and becoming masochistic; suffering weakness and becoming sadistic; not suffering weakness and becoming apathetic; and not suffering weakness and becoming sympathetic.

The fifth condition is environmental clay. This refers to people who have endured so much trauma that they have become depressed.

Abuse and neglect that lead to giving up on life is the most common reason for a person to belong to the fifth condition. If a person suffers so much during childhood that they come to feel that the world is an evil place, and so there’s no point in trying to be happy here, then they fall into this category. This is also the category for people who have become shut-ins owing to adverse early childhood experiences.

The fifth condition is for people that were created genetically normal but who were then broken by the world. A great number of suicides fall into this category, because those with harmful genetic conditions have often learned to live with them by the time they reach suicide age. Most deaths of despair afflict people in the fifth condition.

The sixth condition is environmental iron. This refers to people who have endured so much trauma that they have become sadistic.

When children are born, they don’t immediately know if the world is a good place or an evil one. They learn this, based on how their environment treats them. Those who come into the world and are met with abuse learn that the world runs on abuse. As such, they naturally come to abuse others. Alchemically speaking, their environment has hammered them into shape like a blacksmith would hammer into a shape an iron dagger.

The main difference between genetic iron and environmental iron is that the former is dumb, whereas the latter can be of any level of intelligence. Genetic iron tends to fall in line with a smack to the head; environmental iron is much less predictable. Although people of both genetic iron and environmental iron can behave like psychopaths, the latter is closer to what used to be called a sociopath.

The seventh condition is environmental silver. This is otherwise known as “having a decent upbringing”.

It’s comparatively rare for people to grow up in this world without suffering heavily. Someone who grew up genetically unremarkable and who also had an unremarkable upbringing usually enjoys the human experience. Much like people in the third condition, the major characteristic of the seventh condition is apathy.

The main difference between the seventh condition and the third is that people in the seventh condition are much more likely to move out of it. Those in the third condition are usually stuck there on account of the mindless inertia of biological forces, but those in the seventh can either reason their way out of apathy or have an experience that causes them to learn sympathy.

The eighth condition is environmental gold. This refers to a person who has endured trauma that made their behaviour worse, but who has overcome that.

The eighth condition is analogous to gold because of its value and rarity. The vast majority of people who suffer heavily become either meek or cruel, and the majority of those who don’t suffer become apathetic. A person who has suffered, and overcome it, has demonstrated a spiritual quality of the highest value.

All of the world’s genuine spiritual leaders fall into this category. It is the category for those who have learned the ultimate spiritual and alchemical power of transmuting suffering into joy. Eckhart Tolle is probably the most famous example right now, having learned to transmute a near-suicidal depression into tranquility.

These are the four environmental conditions. In short, they are: suffering trauma and becoming masochistic; suffering trauma and becoming sadistic; not suffering trauma and becoming apathetic; becoming sympathetic regardless of whether one suffered trauma.

These eight conditions are as far as mainstream psychology goes. Mainstream psychology is only concerned with biological nature and environmental nurture; it allows no concept of any spiritual dimension, because any such dimension would not be amenable to measurement. The latter four conditions in alchemical psychopathlogy are spiritual.

The ninth condition is spiritual clay. This refers to a person whose true will is to withdraw from the world.

People in the ninth condition have a spiritual attachment to suffering. They are often described by others as excessively sensitive. They are not broken like people in the fifth condition or defective like people in the first. They just don’t want more life.

Many old people come into this condition once the prime of their lives are over. It’s both common and understandable for a person to mentally check out of reality once they only have pain and suffering to look forward to. People with schizoid personality disorder also fall into this category, as does everyone who has simply become bored of life.

The tenth position is spiritual iron. This refers to people whose true will is to increase the amount of suffering in the world.

People belonging to this condition are rare, and are often hard to detect until it’s too late. People without a genetic reason to be resentful and who have not suffered significant environmental trauma, but who still act to increase the net amount of suffering in the world, could be said to be evil.

The characteristic way to recognise a person in this condition is that there’s no explicable reason for their actions. This is why they can’t be said to be ‘fucked-up’ like a person in the sixth condition. A lot of old people end up in the tenth condition if they become bitter, because it’s common for old people to become resentful about their impending deaths and to take this resentment out on the young.

The eleventh position is spiritual silver. This refers to people whose true will is to be indifferent to suffering.

Most people in the eleventh condition have drifted through life in a state of bliss. They haven’t suffered for genetic reasons, haven’t suffered for environmental reasons, and they do not have a strong spiritual attachment to suffering. They experience life much like an enlightened person does, without appreciating why.

People in the eleventh condition are different to people in the seventh because people in the eleventh are indifferent to their own suffering, not only (or even primarily) the suffering of others. Someone in the seventh condition might suffer and then become a person of the fifth or sixth conditions, but a person in the eleventh condition can suffer without being affected.

The twelfth position is spiritual gold. This refers to people whose true will is to decrease the suffering in the world.

People in the twelfth condition are the bodhisattvas of this part of the Great Fractal. They are the ones who have managed to find a way to transmute suffering into joy, not just for themselves but also for others. Their spiritual nature has overpowered both their genetic nature and their conditioned nature, but in the best possible way. People in this condition plant trees even though they won’t get to sit in the shade of them.

David Bowie once said that “Religion is for people who fear hell, spirituality is for people who have been there.” The twelfth condition is for those who have suffered but who have found a way to overcome it absolutely, not partially or temporarily as people in the eighth condition have. These people are the masters of alchemy who have succeeded at the meaning of life.

These are the four spiritual conditions. In short, they are: a true will to withdraw from suffering; a true will to increase suffering; a true will to be indifferent to suffering; a true will to decrease suffering.

Generally speaking, a person will fall into one of the earlier conditions as their life begins, will move into the middle conditions as their life progresses, and will finally move into the latter conditions as their life comes to a close.

This reflects the developmental influences of humans from almost purely genetic when they are born, to genetic and environmental in youth, to genetic, environmental and spiritual in middle age and to spiritual in old age.

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